The writer and journalist Luz Sánchez-Mellado took part in the last session of the MuVIM’s cinema and debate series “Big Bang Dones” focused on the analysis of the new ways of understanding and living motherhood. This is the last taboo which must be overcome by women, as it seems that every one of them should feel and seem happy and grateful to be a mother, without any right to complaint, dissatisfaction or ambivalence feelings. In this article prepared for the occasion, Luz Sánchez-Mellado confesses that, despite being a mother, she has never felt such thing called maternal instinct and that her experience with motherhood is at least, ambivalent.